20081015
Wooot i am blogging a while now cause i have some time. Its gonna be pretty random cause i dun feel like using my brain cells at all. Anyway! Life have been pretty much great in camp without my boss :S hahaha shiok. :D
Anyway i finally passed my BTT, and it was real quick haha. Got a test date like 3daes after i registered and really piaed last min like a mad ass. i thought i was gonna gg cause i onli started doing practise questions on the afternoon itself?. But thankfully i passed!
quite a lot of things happened during the last week, including a trip to Sentosa with soph. on Friday haha. Haha hope you enjoyed the "escapade" lol. We went to the beach in the afternoon when it was freaking hot and musical fountain at night. We were really tyco that day too! cause we didn't bought tickets in advance for the 730p.m. musical fountain show, and so when we went to purchase it just before the show it was sold out, yea and we were pretty sad for a while. And just when we were stuck there like fools, theres this kind malay teenager who offered us two 730 tickets FOR FREE!!! MY GOSH la. she could have given it to so many people, well i guess we were really damn damn lucky. Yep lastly we gobbled some ben jerry's at harbourfront before heading home, lol thank God for that wonderful Friday, haha we haven went out like that for eons.
And on sunday our church had family day at west coast park, was alittle stressed initially cause xingwei sam and me had to plan the activities and carry them out. We really had a challenging time trying to coordinate things, but oh wells i am glad that overall it turned out okay. the only shit thing was that it was AN EVEN HOTTER day den friday. and i got sunburned argh. And when that happens i just feel so irritated by the stinging and itchy sensation that i cant do much but just idle, lol. at least now its getting better and i didn't peel thanks to my mum's moisturizer.
My gosh what a random entry, i am glad that this week its gonna be a pretty nice week too with a couple of meet ups and all. but shit man i am really slowing down on my music alreadi, need to buck up.
Hmmm acty i kinda wanna play in worship, i think its a really meaningful thing but i really dunno where to begin.
.yong
posted @ 1:47 PM
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20080909
Geee when i was looking at the other 75er's blog , i just realized that i have forgotten to blog about MAF 08 at HC. :D oh my its such an important event, how can i ever forget.
well well, Its a very special day where ex-HC students meet up and relive their memories once again by celebrating Mid Autumn Festival... sounds pretty old-fashioned yea?, lol. I guess those who have enjoyed your stay in HC would understand how much I do actually feel for the school. It was seriously a night of unexplainable warmth to see the ever familiar smiles of friends that I really really freaking miss during my times in army.
I could still recall that the HC days were the days that i could really feel so comfortable being my true self. You don't have to be constantly cautious of people around you, and you dun have to be an ass just to protect yourself from being exploited or stepped on. And in every corner of the school, there will always be someone who will wave and smile at you even if they do not know you too well.
Well HC isn't nice because angels from different secondary schools just HAPPENED to congregate there. Instead, I believe that the environment or the general behaviour of those around you does play a huge role in bringing out certain traits of a person. Eventually, it is inevitable that some temporal and permanent changes will occur. Yes it can be good or bad, but fortunately you have one thing in control that can make a world of difference, -> your perspective.
Perhaps if we compare ourselves with students from the other schools such as RJ, we are generally less prepared to step into the next phase of life(uni/work), partly because our environment is just far too comfortable, and to a certain extent, perhaps even too ideal. It is certainly not an accurate representation of what the outside world will be like and we tend to have a harder time trying to adept to the harsh realities of life isn't it?
I remembered that I was seriously considering my options of transferring to RJC via Track, after 4 longggg yrs of sec school life in HC. I thought it was a pretty good idea initially, since you'll get to enjoy the best of both worlds if you are thrown into 2 totally different environments. Oh well, i chose not to in the end, for there was something deep down my heart that told to stay, even though my dad pretty much wanted me to hop over too... I think one of the greatest reason was track, although i was a transient member ever since the torrent of injuries came, I could never forget how meaningful and fulfilling my days in sec1&2 were when I fought so damn hard for the title.
I really missed the days back then. Being in HC Track and HCJC was seriously one of the most magical moments in my life so far. Though it was certainly not a smooth-sailing one, i am glad that I have grown and learnt so much over the years. I was never able to open up to those around me before JC, and although time spent crapping and bullshiting was awfully fun, that wasn't just it. There were also times when we really sat down, had heart-to-heart talks and shared our true thoughts and feelings with one another.
damn i really miss hc !
posted @ 2:19 PM
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20080908
Ahhhh... now life is really starting to get interesting (:
More and more interesting gigs are coming out, including one really special one. and another one thats also new to me haha
Because of pure luck and connections i'll be performing perhaps ard 2 songs at bar-stop along with a FREAKING REAL JAZZ band on the 19th of Sep Fri. Heard that its usually full house, oh wells thats okay. but the most intimidating thing is actually the band members.
the drummer and the bassist are both some old middle-age ang mo, and one of them i heard is a professor in music too. Bloody shit, I will really have to psyche up myself man, the vocalist is supposed to be the one leading the performance, and that will be a challenge esp when i would inevitably feel so small beside those guys man. They have been making music even before the day that i was born man. OMG LOL
Okay man yong, confidence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and if everything goes as planned i will be playing for a friend's relative church wedding. Along with a guy of saxaphone and another on guitar hahah. i dunno how is it gonna work out with this uncommon combination, but we'll see haha, its gonna be fun i think. Freak man, never have I did a piano alone performance. And I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna and HAVE TO do it well cause its a once-in-a-lifetime thing for the couple man.
and a couple more performances in december where i would be playing and singing on piano. and perhaps even for Christmas events if i can get the right support ( a zai guitarist).
acty have been performing a little for the past few weeks already, didn't really call ppl down for support yet because i was suffering from a bad acid reflux and my throat was in a pretty bad shape due to the medical condition. Well, now with exercise my health is improving a heck lot :D:D:D, yep and i hope to get back on form asap.
with so much time available when you're in 9 to 5 NS there's seriously no time to waste, I am glad that i was given so much opportunities to explore the other artistic side of me, after 6 yrs of madness in sports haha.
Yep, and i think friends are damn damn important too. Really appreciate those who actually put in the effort to maintain contact despite all odds, and its usually during pretty unfavourable times in NS where your eyes are finally open and you learn to appreciate stuffs more.
Yep and I think that its great to have parents who really trust and support you in everything that you do. I think i am spending quite a lot these days ): should really stop my bloody habit of cabbing here and there, and yea i think i'm gonna study damn hard when uni starts, be successful and give them a comfortable life man.....
Ah my thoughts are really disorganized man, but i think you get what i mean yea....i feel so motivated and grateful now despite NS. I think life will get EVEN EVEN better when I ORD, can't wait hahaha but i will certainly enjoy what i have now too (:
Yep I really wanna thank God for sustaining me through the most mentally challenging situations.
And one last thing, keep both of us close to your heart Lord regardless of what happens (:Only You know what is really the best for both of us.life rocks
posted @ 2:53 PM
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20080824
Realization
its been a long long long while since i wrote something here (: i doubt i even have the ability to probably write fluently, after not writing for such a freaking long period of time... yea and certainly the past few mths in ns has really made me dumber over time :S oh wells, its inevitable and every single guy goes through it, so i guess we are all on equal footing at the end of it, so its fine, lol.
I guess I have not quite been myself for the past few mths, so as probably any ns men out there. But perhaps to a much larger extent for me since theres much more politics on the admin side as compared to the combat side. It's tough... when you are forced to be an idiot to survive in tough environments. Well being an ass is not tough, but i guess the worst part comes when you really reflect upon yourself and realize what you have become, or to put it a little more kindly, what you are forced to become. Thereafter, there's also a high possibility that this dark side of you would surface every now and then even when you are out in the civilian world, and that will really screw u up eventually.
Help me Lord, i need to shine even in the darkest situations
posted @ 10:21 PM
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20071217
The ability to analyze and predict.
Sometimes having an ability to do so may not be a good thing. Well.... ignorance can really be a blessing in disguise... ... You get to enjoy the moment before reality sets in, you are not constantly bogged down by what has not happened though it will STILL happen. You are bloody worrying about things that will happen next, and that constant voice at the back of the head that says, "shit it really is turning out the way i expected"... ... Anything productive? No. The burdens just keeps adding on when reality continues to unfold just the way you have guessed it to be.
Sometimes it's really better to just freaking heck it and throw aside things that are beyond our bloody control instead of trying to be some kind of a useless psychic. It really screws up your bloody life and takes away everything that is currently beautiful in life.
Its just like how a doomsayer would always predict that the world is coming to an end, mankind will perish at the rate we are going blah blah blah... and when shit like 911 really occurs do you think he would rejoice over the fact that reality has really begin to unfold in the way that he have expected. NO man. Hell no. He probably didn't want it to happen this way too, but, its way beyond his control. So is it really worth preparing for it at all? I think not, especially when it is totally out of your region of control. Well the thing is that such sadness and downheartedness really builds up tremendously over time, and knowing beforehand that shit is going to happen just places you into that bloody negative state earlier and for a longer period of time as well. What happens in the end? you are probably physically calmer than everyone else who have not expected it, but thats because you are really damaged emotionally. You have became too numb to react to it when it comes after long periods of being in such low spirits.
It doesn't pay to try to be mentally prepared for everything because the preparation phase itself is already one freaking big torture at times, especially when minds and thoughts are by nature so volatile, unpredictable and uncontrollable. So why torture yourself when its not here yet? Shouldn't you be enjoying the moment, and appreciate what little that is left?
Its true that as you struggle in life, learn from the experience of others as well as your own, or constantly reflect on things are happening around, you will gradually gain the the ability to appreciate the finer things in life, know and understanding how one is actually feeling or thinking, or know which is the most possible and impossible scenario in reality.
Sounds like a really useful ability eh, But is this all really good........ perhaps not...
It is somewhat disheartening to know too much. Being too aware of the flaws in life will only make living lose its idealistic magic.
Ignorance is bliss,
really... trust me on that
posted @ 1:35 AM
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20071206
Sorry for abandoning my blog for a hell long period of time, and occasionally posting some crap posts here that is utterly meaningless and not a joy to read at all. Well, those were the shitty moments of my life, and the blog was actually turned into a dumping ground especially in times of frustrations.
Billions of things to be said since the last ridiculous post. Well, i shall just stick to the most recent one i guess, yep... prom , the final event of my 2 yrs in HCI, the 2 short but unforgettable years....
Well it was a pretty enjoyable experience cause it was something new too and something which i only experienced once in my life so far... ... Oh and i even went up to perform during prom with my classmates since it was our one final chance. pretty enjoyable experience! though prom ain't really a suitable event for such a performance actually.
Haha the team :D
i think its pretty cool that the guys have blazers of all diff. colours haha
In action!
For me, the feeling at prom was a bittersweet one. Deep down in their hearts, there was so much more that everyone wanted to say, to share and to express to one another during the night. But all of these were totally masked by the stunning dresses, make up and ambience. Maybe thats precisely the reason why prom has to be the last event. It is natural for one to be overwhelmmed with so much emotions and feelings for a last event after 2 yrs of sweat and tears, so much so that the air of melancholy will probably be too strong for the event to actually end on a happy note. Yep, thank goodness for prom it has diverted our attention from the cold hard truth that we are finally at the crossroads, but well perhaps..... the diversion was a little too much i think.
It is natural for one (esp. girls) to photo whore and capture as many moments of your rare and glamorious front, after looking like frankenstein for months during the A lvl period. After all! It took you lots of hardwork to fish out one bloody dress out of the hundreds you have came across! and lots of time was also spent on useless tanning and exercising sessions (which have no results at all, LOL) during the post A's period right?!
Face it. If you have taken class photos, the first person you will look out for is probably yourself, out of the 20 odd ppl.
Prom is definitely one event that everyone should experience though, but I really feel that it seriously lacks meaning to follow the norm and put it as the last event. Most of us have the tendency to get too obsessed with our own looks cause everyone else is too, and that seriously just spoils the meaning. You probably still have abt 6 to 7 decades left for self-obssession, and probably only a couple of hours left to catch up with friends who you may not ever meet for a lifetime. (extreme, but thats life) Having said all these, of course i was still really normal and cheerful or the night itself, I wasn't sitting on my chair, fasting, emoing and sobbing away, LOL.
Only all of us started to sing the HC songs, then i began to realize what was really going on... ... an unexplainable surge of nostalgia. I really didn't want to cross the finishing line, even though we had just ran the toughiest race of our life thus far. Yep, I am serious. I wouldn't mind going through the entire 2 years again, although it was really hell at times. After all, you will never grow if you do not struggle with life, and you will never feel joy if you have never experienced sadness before. The entire HC experience is irreplaceable, never have i entered a school that have given me so much warmth and joy. Also, i think the class matters a hell lot too, thank God that i got posted to a such a united class (: with such wonderful people that i wouldn't mind keeping contact for a lifetime.
The 34th Council used a fantastic analogy (but with lousy elaboration) about us being musical instruments, and that although the song has stopped playing, the strings will still remain forever. I was a little upset that they didn't further elaborated cause it set me thinking so much when i heard that.
Though our individual tunes may inevitably clash at times, compromise, love and patience saw us through. Now that we have orchestrated and played our final impeccable piece, its time to move on. We will soon be playing to different tunes in different orchestras. But just remember the tune that was once ever so familiar and close to our hearts... ...
posted @ 10:35 PM
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20070920
well.. today's not a very good day though exam's over.
Went to see a doc, cause i got a fungi infection that has been appearing and disappearing for almost 10 mths ever since i went korea during winter last yr. Its totally bloody irritating me.
Have seen this doc at coro b4 , twice this yr. First time he gave me a cream to apply, 2nd time i went back cause it looks worse. He merely said that perhaps i never apply the cream regularly and gave me back the same cream.
And when i went to another doc today, a much more widely known and reliable one, he said a totally different thing. One look at it and he knew that the medicine prescribed by the previous doctor was cocked up. The rashes were long long gone, its just that the medicine prescribed by the previous doctor is, (steriod base) too bloody strong to be used for some types of skin, as such it damaged my bloody skin and made me felt even more uncomfortable and sore for such a long period of time. I can't believe that the doc at coro actually instructed me to apply more of the same med when i went back for a follow up.
That doc is seriously a total bastard. Made me suffer for one yr and though it will heal overtime, it will take months or even YRS to heal, so i will have to bear with this bloody discomfort 24/7 meantime. Bloody shit head, he shld just DIE SERIOUSLY
FUC*ER
Now i am wondering could that be the reason why i caught a flu cough sorethroat and eventually bronchitis for almost 3 mths earlier this yr?
Perhaps so cause he was the first doc i actually went to, and i only started to get better when i switched doctor. ARGH.........................
Just tell me wtf is wrong man, why do i always get screwed up doctors even during the time when i had my major injuries in sec 2/3. I cld still remember the bloody amount of jabs that were given,
and they only made things WORST.
ARGH......
My goodness.........
posted @ 2:20 PM
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